Here's the story...

Whereeeee to start! Well today is January, 2nd 2013! Happy New Year all, and this year will definitely be a new and exciting year for us! I am 15 weeks and 2 days pregnant today! And can definitely say there has been a numerous amount of changes I have already experienced with this pregnancy til today.

Let me unravel the story from the beginning. That's always a good place to start! :) I found out I was pregnant October 25. I remember this because my long awaited colonoscopy (I will explain why later) was scheduled  on October 29th, and naturally last minute it gets cancelled- but it was thanks to good news so that was okay! I wasn't really experiencing any symptoms that were indicating or making me have any feelings or intuitions about pregnancy, I just happened to be a few days " late" and  with my colonoscopy approaching I had slight paranoia knowing my "luck" heh, I would go through all my fun prepping for the colonoscopy (  if you don't know this prepping involves drinking lots of laxatives the day before, not eating, hanging out  in the bathroom all day basically and being awesome like that) and then I would show up all ready for my procedure and they would do a rule of thumb pregnancy test there, and guess what it would be positive and all my fun activities the day before would go to waste! :) I was pretty much sure I was SO wrong, but I knew I would totally regret and not forgive myself if I just DIDN'T double check- especially with it running through my head as is.

Well, as it turns out I took a home pregnancy test and what seemed to be a very faint second line appeared. And note- I am not a morning person at ALL. I give myself the minimum amount of time in the morning to get ready before work because every hour, every minute, scratch that, every second is dear to me when it comes to sleep. Call me a bum... but I love my sleep. So I do whatever I need to do the night before, so I can solely just wake up, go to the bathroom, get dressed and go. So, I usually give myself about 10- 15 minutes. That specific morning I added an additional thing to accomplish before I was to head out the door. So I am half asleep still and suddenly see what seems to be a faint positive line. I get a rush of adrenaline suddenly, rub my half asleep eyes to makes sure I'm not seeing things here, and it is still uncertain. I pull out another brand, and that one becomes instantly positive, and suddenly I am more awake than after a shot of espresso, and with so many thoughts and feelings running through my head. All good of course :)

Aside from all the typical happy and exciting feelings, and needing to tell Zhenya ASAP, I was also thinking I need to call my doctors this very minute to make accommodations to reschedule my colonoscopy and such. And of course a blood test. This is probably so strange to hear, but I told Zhenya through TEXT. Yes, say whatever you shall say, impersonal, cold, mainstream...but honestly... we both are working in the morning and do not really have the opportunity to make phone calls, and I obviously could NOT wait to tell him! Nonetheless, his reaction was definitely funny, and thank you dear iphone for letting me do screenshots and having that memory to save for an eternity! 

Anyway, that day ended up working out very well. I worked half day at my babysitting job, and was able to contact all the needed doctors. My colonoscopy was obviously cancelled, and a blood test for the same day was ordered. Which, once again worked out great because I got out of babysitting early and usually head straight to my other store job, but had a few hours to spare to  head to the doctor's and get my blood test. They promised it would be ready half hour before I was supposed to head to my other job. Those 2-3 hours were probably the longest hours of my LIFE!  I ended up calling the doctor's and naturally the results were not ready. And called one more time right before I headed out the door, and YES... my blood test was in fact POSITIVE! And so my first prenatal appointment was scheduled, and you can say my pregnancy became “official" from that point on. 

It was a very exciting, emotional, nerve wrecking day. And in the end, even though it was confirmed, it obviously did not seem real. I could not stop grinning and it kind of just seemed like a day dream. But from that point on, we had to get used to the thought we were expecting a BABY and we were going to become parents! I mean, MIND BLOWING!

And once again- to each his own... but keeping a secret like this was probably one of the hardest things for me to do! When it comes to other people's secrets, okay... no big deal. But when it has to deal with you and it is such HAPPY and WONDERFUL news, you just want to tell EVERYONE and shout it to the world. At least I do :) Aside from my burning desire to tell everyone, I think I did pretty well. We of course told our close friends and family - some even the very same day we found out. Yes, we were THAT excited!  Zhenya didn't really see the big deal in keeping it a secret to the 2nd trimester point. As much as I wanted to share this news with everyone, I knew it was probably the "right" thing to do. And if of course I were to miscarry it would be awkward I guess then telling everyone about it. Zhenya saw it as a natural thing. That even if God forbid I was to miscarry it is a natural thing and nothing to be ashamed of really. Not really the most pleasant thing to share with others, but nothing to be ashamed of.  And I completely agree, it's mainly I think the way society came up with these rules now.  I mean there are a lot of people with such a variety of opinions, especially when it comes to pregnancy and how to go about it, just... so controversial that no matter what you decide to do there will always be those few people that will mentally judge you, or say comments behind your back and disagree with you. You can't avoid that.  “Oh, wow… I can’t believe she announced her pregnancy so early” “Oh, she posted it on facebook” “OMG, she is this far along and was hiding her pregnancy.” The list is endless; the opinions just go on and on. Honestly…I am happy with how we are doing things and that is all that matters.  When it comes to such news, I don’t understand hiding it. It’s GOOD news, why would you want to hide it? I want to share it with all my friends, it’s a joyous thing! That’s how I see it, and that’s the stance I am taking in this.

So we waited til’ the 13 week mark, and you can say we went “facebook official!” And we are super excited about this and really thankful for everyone’s congratulations and sweet and warm wishes, definitely nice to see this big community share the joy with us.

This is when and how the pregnancy came about and how it became known and official… and from this point on we are just taking it one day at a time and slowly getting each and every day closer to meeting our little one! :)