20 weeks pregnant! Wow! This is a milestone worth celebrating!!! I have
been pregnant the same amount of time that is left of this pregnancy. Pretty
amazing. At one point it seems like I have come pretty far, but then from
another point of view it still seems like this pregnancy is just dragging and I
just can’t wait to meet our little one already!
This week has been all about food and emotions. Eating and eating and more
eating. Feeling sad, crying and eating more. I think it is safe to say I
definitely “feel” pregnant this week! From the crazy week before, this week has
been very laid back and basically me getting back into the midst of things at
home. I worked only 2 days, and the other days were spent…. Basically me eating
and sleeping. I’m a bum, yes… but I totally
enjoyed this little break while it
lasted!
My appetite has woken up this week- like CRAZY. I cannot stop eating.
And I am not trying to. I’ve lost 10 pounds basically and all these apps are
telling me I am supposed to have gained about 12 pounds at this point and I am
still less than what I weighed pre-pregnancy so I have no shame in what or how
I am eating. I’m seeing this as my body trying to catch up. Although I won’t be
surprised if I gain 15 pounds just this week after the amount I’ve eaten, haha.
PASTA. I have always been a pasta person, and always told myself I
could eat it every day if given the chance. I never did of course, because you
know- those darn carbs, they could make you gain weight and such. But the
position I am in right now, am I really concerned about gaining weight? I didn’t
think so… So I wanted pasta and pasta it was. All week. Breakfast, lunch,
dinner and all the other meals in between that have no official names.
My new thing this week is eating at 5-6-7am in the morning. Zhenya
wakes up around 6 am every morning for work, and since I am a light sleeper I
always wake up with him, and have had trouble falling asleep in the past when
he would leave. Because once he would
wake me up suddenly I realize that I need to pee, that I am extremely thirsty
and now hungry is another problem added to the list. I’m hungry to the point
where I literally cannot fall back asleep until I eat something. I mean I love
food and all, but before even if I was hungry, I would still be able to fall
asleep if I was tired, I would overcome
the hunger. Now, hunger is definitely winning. So this week, I have been having
spaghetti with tomato sauce and cheese for breakfast every morning. Like a
legit plate, maybe two (depends how hungry I am) of pasta, then I am satisfied
and happily fall asleep. The thing is, I never really liked breakfast food. I
can’t really eat cereal or eggs or whatever. Like, I can… but for like a
snack, there has to be more to it for me to be full. So pasta it is I guess.
And I have definitely proven my words correctly this week in saying if given
the opportunity I would eat it every day. Even as a little kid, I remember this
one home video of me from when I was 6, this was when my mom still lived with
my dad. My dad made macaroni with tomato sauce, and I had about 4 plates/
portions of my dad’s macaroni because I loved it so much. I LOVE pasta, haha.
And it seems like baby does too!
Aside from spaghetti, I have been eating other things, ( believe it or
not!) pasta has just been the majority. I actually found the energy to make a
fresh, healthy dinner twice this week. Don’t get me wrong- I LOVE to cook. My
energy levels have just been horrible lately, that I have not been able to make
homemade meals everyday as I wished I could. But I made organic pork chops and
chicken sausage patty things with a salad one night ( yes, a salad!!! With
avocados, lettuce, tomatoes, you name it!) Since I am not really into meat
lately, I nibbled on the sausage patties but the rest was really left for my
hubby to eat. The second night I made organic
baked chicken, marinated and some of them were stuffed with mushrooms
and cheese, with rice and salad. And of course
since meat isn’t appealing, I made myself shrimp in a yummy tomato sauce with seasonings.
So these were some of my food consumptions aside from pasta. I also had
stonyfield yogurt (blueberry kind is the best!!!) and I’ve been munching on
strawberries and tomatoes like crazy too. So I do try to eat healthy- don’t get
me wrong! With my appetite being crazy this
week it was a little easier to throw in some healthy foods. But seriously I
have been eating nonstop. I eat, eat and eat!!!
I’m just HUNGRY all the time!!! I shouldn’t complain though, I prefer
this crazy food mania better than not eating and hugging the toilet as I did in
the beginning of the pregnancy.
Emotions, oh I don’t know what is going on there… I must be pregnant or
something. In the beginning of the week I was kind of sad, wasn’t really sure
why. I think it may have been everything topped together. Even though I was
getting better, I was still very sad that I HAD a kidney infection to begin
with, and that I was in the hospital because of it, despite the wonderful care I had.
Then, I was really upset with the fact that I was still feeling like crap, and felt
useless... feeling crappy and laying in bed all day not doing anything useful. Not
working, and not cleaning and not making money. Once the pains went away, I
tried to make up for it by cooking, and got some errands done one of the days,
but I’ve just been a downer. I’ve also become more sensitive (I think.) If you
know me well, you know I am very emotional and sensitive person to begin with,
and very open with my feelings for the most part. I just find myself caring too
much about certain things that maybe I shouldn’t be caring about. And these
things just make me sad. Sad to the point where it takes a while for me to calm
down and get to a normal state. I think it’s just me being emotional as is, plus
the pregnancy hormones on top, I don’t know, but I don’t like it. I don’t enjoy
being sad. Life aint perfect but that’s no reason to dwell in all the bad
stuff. And when I do “dwell” in it, it makes me even more upset with myself. It
then turns into this big cycle of sadness that I just can’t stop. On the bright
side, I have a wonderful, supportive hubby who through everything knows how to
make me smile despite it all. And he is so understanding with all my emotions, he truly is the best! This week in general has just been very sad for
me. And I know maybe my sadness and
reactions to certain things may not seem rational at times, I guess I just wish
some people would approach it all with more understanding and support. Yes,
this is me kind of relaying a personal issue I have without actually stating
names or specifics. Regardless, I hope
this blues will go away; I don’t like being sad, ugh!!!
Happy thoughts- baby movement! I posted a status about it this week,
but this week baby has been moving like crazy!! I’ve felt those little pops and
gas-like feelings where I knew it was baby… but this week… baby has legit been
KICKING! This really makes me so happy and so ecstatic!! It just makes the
pregnancy more real- there is a BABY in my belly and it’s moving! Baby was
moving so much and so hard I felt it with my hand. And I could feel it on both
sides of my stomach, so baby must have been doing some serious stretches in
there. I even played with baby a little. I would poke my tummy and feel that it
would suddenly get softer and emptier on one side of my tummy, and harder on
the other side. I would poke the harder side and suddenly would get a punch
back! It’s SUCH a crazy feeling! I can’t even find the right words to describe
it. It is definitely unusual, and something for me to still get used to. Because
every time I get an unexpected KICK, it’s so sudden and unexpected I stop what I’m
doing because it just catches me off guard. I gasp almost every time I get
kicked, and even dropped my phone the other day because it was so sudden, hard
and unexpected! I’m not complaining though, this is what I have been waiting
for from the beginning of this pregnancy so I am enjoying every bit of it!
Another, kind of small detail, I’ve noticed is my veins. I’ve noticed
them in the beginning of the pregnancy, they have been really sticking out,
especially… well … on my … boobs. Sorry if I make you uncomfortable- but with
pregnancy come a lot of details and weird things so just get used to it! :P
Anyway, back to my train of thought. Which makes sense, because they expanded
and grew rapidly in the beginning of the pregnancy and they also say these varicose
veins are caused due to increased blood supply in my body. I gradually started
noticing the veins in other places too, like the sides of my belly. And today when I took a bath I noticed it on
my legs too. Hmm! I know some pregnant women have problems with their veins
post birth, they bulge and stick out and such… I hope this won’t happen to me…
Other than that, those are really the changes I have experienced this
week. But mainly- food and emotions at high! Aside from my sad emotions, I am
just so … I don’t even know the right way to describe it, but feel amazing to
have made it to 20 weeks. Halfway there!
Man… I mean I technically found out I was pregnant at 5 weeks… so I’ve been “Aware” of my pregnancy for 15
weeks, not 20… but it is still an amazing feeling! Baby is 50 % done cooking, and
each day I am just getting closer to meeting our little one. Just beyond
excited…
This coming week we have OUR ULTRASOUND!!!! Ahhhh!!! I am SUPER psyched
about that!!! As you all know, I have been DYING to find out the gender from
the very beginning and I just cannot wait for the 6th to get here!
The closer I get to that date, for some reason the longer time seems to drag!
Bleh!!! But, there will DEFINITELY be a post dedicated to that, revealing the
gender once we find out, and I am hoping to get an approval on sharing the sonogram
pics as well. Regardless, in a few days we HOPEFULLY will know the gender, which
I think will help with trying to start figuring out a name. I also want to
start a baby/pregnancy book which I have only found to be gender specific, so I
can officially go and purchase one. Andddddd…. I want to make a baby blanket
for our little one, and of course I have been holding back on that because I
want to make it either blue or pink, hehe.
Regardless, exciting week ahead, and this post is a little bit early ( 2 days) but I thought that would be okay and it makes up for the times I have had late
posts in the past! So stick around and exciting news will be shared this week!
Oh!!! One more thing! My weight!! I am surprised I didn’t gain like 10
pounds alone this week, but I think I am starting to gain something!!! This is
my weight change since the beginning of
pregnancy :
10/25/12: 5w 140 lbs
11/5/12: 7 w 135 lbs ( 5 lbs loss)
11/12/12: 8 w 133.8 lbs (6.2 lbs loss)
11/26/12: 10 w 133 lbs (7 lbs loss)
12/17/12: 13 w 131 lbs (9 lbs loss)
01/14/13: 17 w 133.5 lbs (6.5 lbs loss)
01/28/13: 19 w 135.8 lbs (4.2 lbs loss)
02/02/13 : 20 w 136.5
(3.5 lbs loss)
(even though technically today is Saturday and
I will be officially “20 weeks” on Monday,
so I am kind of cheating- I almost,
basically gained a pound this week! Woohoo!!! :)
A picture I found on some site I don’t remember which one… (this is not
my belly) but I think it’s cute and sums up where I am now… :)
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